Ode to Narcissism: Archive

Well...

Almost everything is rose-tinted in retrospect. I’ve been thinking alot about the past lately. Perhaps partly as a result of some dissatisfaction with the present. I’ve also had some reappearances. I feel myself getting older. And I’ve gotta say, it seems both right and frighteningly wrong. I finally have some things to say again.

May 8th

Applying to Grad school...

Going insane. Working crazy hours at 3 different jobs. Thank god I’ll be in Vegas for St. Patrick’s Day.

Mar 15th

I guess I’m just no good at relationships. I need a break for awhile. I just don’t have it in me anymore.

Jul 31st

It is...

amazing to me how many people rip Octavia Butler off. I wonder if anyone has ever seriously investigated this. I also can’t help but notice how many tv shows/songs/etc are HEAVILY influenced by Adams’ The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy.

Jul 15th

I understand, at least partially, why men are the way that they are. Damp environments promote mold growth. At the same time, I’d like to believe they are smart enough to see past or to overcome this. Sadly, again and again, experience proves me wrong. Sometimes I just don’t see the fucking point. Perhaps (certain breeds of) snails have it right… asexuality may be the...

Feb 14th

I just don’t know what to do anymore.

Nov 27th

It's times like these...

and moments like this where I think to myself, “What is the point?”. Maybe I’m just not meant for meshing with other people.

Nov 15th

Sometimes...

I become overemotional and lose my mind a little bit. For what it’s worth…

Nov 3rd

It's Official.

Everything is a conspiracy.

Apr 21st

“Love, in the Western notion, is full of possession, distortion, and corruption. ...”

– - Toni Morrison Sometimes it’s hard to face things that we don’t want to see. Especially when we see ourselves practicing a certain kind of ideology that is most likely inescapable. I write a lot of shit, but I very rarely write something true. So let me give it a shot, even if I...

Apr 17th

Apr 7th

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Apr 6th

Apr 4th

Beating your traffic ticket...

is fucking awesome. That is all.

Apr 3rd

Cosmopolitans?

Taking a class focused solely on Toni Morrison, and I gotta say… she is totally underrated. Beloved is pretty fucking great, too. Better than The Bluest Eye, which isn’t bad. Got into a small debate today regarding cosmopolitanism. It was brought up in a British Romanticism class, and then expounded upon and torn apart by two extremely annoying women (one my age-ish, the other in...

Apr 3rd

UPDATE:

I AM STILL ALIVE. Proof to follow in the near-future.

Apr 1st

Jan 16th

My job...

is no more, and I have been somewhat depressed about this. But only because the income is gone. I am better off, and needed a push to leave anyway. But it still sucks. Especially at Christmas. Everything else is going reasonably well. The new relationship is fantastic (although blogging about it may have just jinxed it). That’s it for now.

Dec 5th

An update.

I’m feeling down. The boy is on a two week trip to Aruba for a tournament, and I miss him more than I thought I would. Which makes me feel kind of pathetic. In addition, family relations are a bit tense at the moment. Money is still low. At least tomorrow is payday, although at this point I owe enough money that most of it will be gone before I can blink. I saw Burn After Reading last...

Sep 29th

Sep 13th

Supernova as it relates to the natural evolution...

This is stupid, but here it goes anyway… I’m taking Oceanography at the moment (because I need a physical science with a lab to transfer), and we’re learning about the creation of the Universe, or, more specifically, the creation of earth through the explosion of a supernova (or perhaps more than one supernova), and the debris that was flung into the Earth… you know, the...

Sep 13th

Sweetheart Phase

Yes, San Francisco was great, and I’ve had some time to reflect on it and appreciate it and so on. I’m not going to blog about it now, though. I’d rather keep it for myself at the moment. Plus, my head is full of chatter that I would like to get out. First… I am in a relationship now. Yeah, I know what some of you are thinking. That was really quick. Maybe it is a...

Sep 8th

San Francisco...

was amazing. Made some very dear friends for life (I hope). There’s so much I want to write about, but I don’t know… maybe I should wait until I have time to rest and reflect and maybe gain some perspective. Maybe I’ll just give some shallow highlights for now: Met the girls and loved them all; Ryan walked by us while we were in line for the Fillmore show. I stepped...

Aug 26th

P4K RA Tour write up →

tobeyoung: Them hoping that Ryan doesn’t have free wi-fi in his hotels, and the text linking to “Foggy” brought the lolz. Rob… you’re a dork.

Aug 22nd

jennijenjenjen wrote this, in response to my...

dradams: DEAR BILL GATES OR RON HOWARD or WHOEVERMAKESTHISSHIT blah blah snowballstextme r It was Al Gore.

Aug 22nd

Am I Headed For The Same Brick Wall?

Just some thoughts on my mind today. Sometimes spending time with yourself is ok. Really. And maybe everyone else had this figured out long ago, but it took me some time and a lot of feeling really low and unlovable and just downright pathetic for me to finally figure it out. I mean it. I have been the loneliest of the lonely. And it was painful. But my god… it feels so good to know...

Aug 20th

This is what I like best.

Goodmorning. For the sake of closure, I am just gonna tell you that I decided not to blog about work. It’s just work. I’m mad, and disappointed, and unhappy, but it’s just work. There are more important things to share. I’m not going to waste time complaining about it here. This is my space to share, and I’m going to share something worth sharing. I went with...

Aug 18th

This is bullshit.

Yeah. My boss counter-offered with an insultingly low raise. Counter-offered is not the correct term. He flat-out told me that is what I am getting. I almost walked out today. I am that furious, insulted, and hurt. Total bullshit. He is definitely not my favorite person right now. Time to find a new job. Why are lawyers so cheap? Don’t they realize they would be ABSOLUTELY NOTHING...

Aug 14th

Steady My Soul and Ease My Worry...

I have been listening to a lot of Cat Power lately. Chan has an amazing voice. Vegas was a lot of fun, but it was also equally frustrating. I will never stay at the New York - New York again. It was a pretty fucking terrible experience, and their Assistant GM is an ageist and sexist prick. That aside, the Hard Rock Hotel’s pool is very nice, although the typical crowd populates it in...

Aug 12th

Koalas ain't hard, they some little bitches: The...

This is sad… and hilarious. yurztruly: This essay was written by an 8th grader in Pittsburgh in the spring of 2004. The assignment was to pick an enangered species, and explain why it’s important to save it. The typos and formatting are preserved from the original. Richard XXXXXXXX Draft 2 I shouldn’t do shit. I don’t care about them they all could die and it won’t affect my life. I...

Aug 8th

Aug 2nd

Gayle's Chocolates. →

Aug 2nd

So, I lied...

I do not have the time (or, really, the energy) to go into what I was going to blog about, so this will constitute the second blog for today. I will now post some random photographs.

Aug 2nd

This time I as "I" and not as "we"...

Ok. So, perhaps that “I will blog again very soon” statement was a bit of a lie. But, I am here now. I am going to Vegas for the weekend. I am very glad and excited about this. I need a vacation. Work has been stressful lately. My boss still has not gotten back to me concerning my raise. I am reaching the end of my rope. 5 years is too long to be overworked, underpaid, and...

Aug 1st

We've the ultimate key to the cause right here.

I went for drinks with my ex yesterday. It was the first time we have seen each other since our breakup in April. It was nice, and surprisingly painful. We have been keeping in touch. We both know we’re dating other people. That is all understood. There have been no sobbing “take me back” phone calls, no “I still love you“‘s, no...

Jul 17th

“I miss your smell and your style And your pure abiding way Miss your approach...”

– Torch - Alanis Morissette She’s still one of the best lyricists out there. I don’t care what anyone thinks.

Jul 15th

Happy Fourth.

A couple of things: 1. Sometimes I really fucking hate men for the way they treat women. Humanism be damned. 2. I am watching a documentary called “American Hardcore” about - you guessed it - punk. 3. This documentary reminded me of the following things: A. Jesse Malin is fucking sexy. B. I still don’t like Henry Rollins. He just rubs me the wrong way. And fuck it...

Jul 4th

Yeah...

It’s been a little while. I apologize. Yes, I’m kidding. I know no one cares. I received my first ticket ever today. And the cop was a total dick. Per usual, I responded with equal rudeness. He threatened to arrest me. “Cops are fucking useless. You’re never there when we need you, but you sure as hell can write us tickets” was probably not the nicest thing I...

Jun 24th

I don't know when else I'll have time...

So, let me provide you with an informative vent-post. The guy who wanted a relationship after the first date is fucking insane. Yes, I am well aware that I should have known. In fact, if I’m going to be honest, I should just admit that I did know. I was just drawn in by a pretty face. I met him through a friend of mine. On our first few dates, he was coming on very strong. He wanted...

Jun 12th

Fuck today.

No more crazies, please. The joke is over, God. Seriously. It’s not funny anymore.

Jun 12th

Good morning.

So, I am finally beginning to understand that the economy is in a bad, bad place right now. Last week, I was a shop-a-holic. This week, I glanced at my bank statement and almost cried. All of the saving I have been doing over the years is basically gone. I still have a small chunk of change, but it is nowhere near where it used to be. And I know that I have no one to blame for this but...

Jun 7th

I also...

bought a hot pink pair of Damita K’s. Anyone who knows me knows that I generally do not wear pink, but when I saw those shoes I had to buy them. They are fanfuckingtastic. And then I had to buy a pink shirt to have something to match them with, although I will most likely end up wearing them with black most of the time. Other than my shopping spree of today, not much is new. I’ve...

Jun 4th