Ode to Narcissism

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bought a hot pink pair of Damita K’s. Anyone who knows me knows that I generally do not wear pink, but when I saw those shoes I had to buy them. They are fanfuckingtastic. And then I had to buy a pink shirt to have something to match them with, although I will most likely end up wearing them with black most of the time.

Other than my shopping spree of today, not much is new.

I’ve been dating - nothing too crazy to report there. Just dating.

I spoke with the ex today. They are leaving on another tour tomorrow. We are supposed to get together for lunch and a chat when he gets back at the end of this month. Things were a little rough with the friendship for the last few weeks, but we’ve been talking more and working things out, so this is good.

I went to see the Sex and the City movie with my friend Stacy yesterday, and it was a very good time. Whatever your politics on the movie, I found it entertaining and consider it a very good girl-bonding movie.

In fact, while we’re on that subject, I feel so good about the path I’m taking lately. Instead of focusing all of my energy on men or relationships, I’ve been cultivating my female friendships and it is paying off in a big way. There is something so beautiful about the friendship that can exist between women - especially between intelligent, independent-minded, strong-willed women. As Stacy said of her platonic relationship development practices last night: “When I meet an interesting and intelligent woman, I snap her up right away.”
These relationships are almost more satisfying than being in a romantic relationship with someone. And I say “almost” because I need sex, and have not had any in awhile. The dates have tried - oh, have they - but I’m just not ready to delve into that yet. My animalistic needs are there, though. Hence the shoe shopping - I am trying to distract myself. I’m not throwing in the towel yet, but I am taking my time and being selective and enjoying myself without the weight of all of the “what if“‘s and the “what next“‘s.

So, here’s to being healthy. Or to trying to be, at least.